Introduction to my blog

Well, this is the start of a new endeavor for me.  I know some other people who have really gotten a lot of out blog writing and I think I'm at the point of my life where it could be quite useful.  Just an introduction to my blog - the title speaks for itself.  I'm going to be speaking about a lot of quite difficult and monumental things that have happened in my life as of late.  I understand that there are people who will be reading my blog who may have heard a different version of these things.  When describing these events, I have no intention of maintaining a balanced point of view.  I understand that while there are two sides to every story, I'm only interested in posting my side and exploring my own perception of these events.  If you take issue with my account of events or my feelings in relation to them, then that is your own problem.

What I hope to gain from writing is a greater understanding of the things that have happened as well as helping others.  Even though this has been easily the most difficult time of my entire life, I have experienced tremendous personal growth and learning about myself.  I feel like I have gone through a war but have continued to emerge victorious, discovering more every single day.  If I can gain something from this experience, I hope to be able to help others gain something and learn something as well.  If for no other reason, maybe I went through this horrible time in order to be able to help others who are going through the same thing.

For those of you who still don't know what I am referring to, I'll give a very brief summary. I don't intend on giving all of the dirty details and/or a blow by blow of what has happened. It would take too long and it's not the point.  So here's the "Reader's Digest" version.  At the end of November, my husband and I separated after I discovered his repeated infidelity.  Our relationship, which may have seemed fine from the outside, was anything but.  He always had a problem understanding appropriate boundaries with other women from the get go.  And unfortunately, this crossed the line of marital fidelity on many occasions throughout our marriage.  Though we had many other issues besides the infidelity, that is what broke us.  Since then, I have been through every emotion under the sun. I've suffered crippling depression and hovered dangerously close to a nervous breakdown at many times.  For long periods, I've barely been able to function enough to get myself through a normal day. Eating and sleeping normally were distant memories.  Short term memory and basic tasks were too difficult.   But I've also gone through amazingly happy periods where I have felt more happy, free, and alive than ever before.  I've known blinding anger and rage, often at unexplicable things.  I have been more sick more often during these last five months than during any other period of my life.  However, I've discovered strength and courage beyond my wildest dreams.  I've deepened friendships and been able to help others going through similar situations.  I've learned that I truly can handle anything and yes, do it on my own.

So that's the purpose of this blog. I'm going to use this as a space to process my extremely complicated feelings regarding what I'm going through and the experiences I'm having as a result.  There will be moments where it is hysterically funny but also when it is very sad.  I will also be document my own personal quest for excellence in which I will be setting goals to be achieved a year from now (more on that in another post). I'll also be telling about other life experiences both profound and hilarious that I've had.  I hope that you enjoy reading as much as I'll enjoy writing.  But again, if you don't like it, don't read it :-)